Still summer, 25th May…
This morning, I was arrived earlier than Dr. Byakuya. I prepared the desk, and made the breakfast for him. Yesterday, He asked me to make the roasted bread and hot coffee.
When I was preparing the breakfast, suddenly, He came.
“Ah, Good morning, Doctor,” I greeted him.
“Morning, Aiko-chan! What are you making of?”
“Oh, this is. Your breakfast,”
“It’s smell good. You must be so expert in cooking,”
He putted his suitcase on the chair.
“Thank you for your praise. But, it’s only the basic in cooking. Everyone can do it,” I putted the roasted bread on the plate.
“Um, Izumi. Do you know that in this few days, Abarai-san will be come up here??”
“Do you mean He’s come back??”
“Yes,”
“Ah, what a great news to hear,” I served the roasted bread and the coffee.
“Um, it’s mean; I’ll be removed again, right??”
“Daijoubu, Doctor. I’ll never forget you,”
“No. I mean, would you like to take care of me??”
“I’m sorry; I don’t get what you mean,”
“Would you be my wife??”
My mind was blank into dark and I couldn’t think anything.
“You’re kidding??”
“No. when was I kidding to you?”
“I’m sorry Doctor, I’ll think it first. And, now I want to go to the room 31,” I left him alone in that room.
What?? An application?
He’s got to be kidding me…
I visited Hirako-san. Our patient. He would tread the operation next day.
“Aihara-san, what’s wrong? Seems your face is unhappy??”
“Um, Ah, I’m sorry, Hirako-san. I just woke up late this morning,” I tried to smiled at him.
“No. seems you have a problem??”
“Aha, am I looking so??”
I like this guy. He’s easy going with me. He was a friendly guy, and He’s so funny if we have talked.
“Your eyes are like a panda eyes,” He starched his eyes’ skin with his fingertips.
“Don’t make a joke here,”
“Hei, Aihara-san,”
“Yes,” I kept writing the report.
“Wish me success to held this operation,”
I stopped, “Yes, of course,”
We both were smiling each other.
Suddenly, Dr. Byakuya was coming up to us.
“Hei, Doctor!” seemed Hirako-san didn’t realize what was happening between us.
I just silenced when He took the report from my both hands.
“Morning, Hirako-san. How are you today??”
It wasn’t like usual. Dr. Byakuya smiled and addressed his patient.
“Whew, what is happening with you, Doctor? Seems you’re in a good mood.”
“Yes. I just got surprised this morning,”
“I’m fine. And, am I will be treated tomorrow??”
“Yes. Wish us success to cure you,” He examined the report.
I really want to stepped my foot out.
“Aiko-chan??”
“Yes, Doctor?”
“When will you going??”
“Um, outside. I thought I forgot something,”
Without waiting any longer, I got out.
Night, 10.00 p.m.
Tonight, I came to Dr. Abarai’s apartment.
“What?? You’re going to be married by him??” He was so surprised when I told him about Dr. Byakuya’s application.
“What should I do, Doctor?? I really confused,”
“Do you want to married with him??”
“Between ‘yes’ and ‘no’,”
“What are the reasons??”
“First, I’m still having a love that I haven’t declared to someone. Second, I want because He’s kind, and He’s love me,”
“What’s your heart says?”
“Um, I’m still confused,”
“Don’t ever make the man waiting,”
But I can’t because I love you…
“Take his application. That’s my suggest,”
“What if my heart says ‘no’??”
“You say your heart says ‘yes’??”
“Ah, I’m just asking you suggest Doctor,”
“That’s my suggest,”
“I’m still training by you. If I married, maybe I would out from that Hospital,”
“And you’ll have a better life than here,”
“Why?”
“Do you know, that He’s higher level than me who just a surgeon,”
He looked at me, and I just bended my head. I cannot bear to saw his face and smile.
“Maybe, you’ll be a rich wife,” He laughed.
I became so much upset. I threw his by a pillow, and home.
“Wait, Aihara!”
I tried to do not hear his shout out to me.
Next Day, 26 may…
I was later than Dr. Byakuya. I saw He has eaten his breakfast and, He was sitting front of his desk and working on something.
“Good morning, Doctor,”
“Morning, Aiko,” He didn’t looked at me.
“Um,” I haven’t said a word yet, He has been ordered me.
“Please, prepared my equipments for operations,”
Seemed, He’s disappointed toward me. I haven’t answered his application yet.
After the Operations.
“Hirako-san haven’t realize yet. Maybe He’s too tired when we holding this operations,” Dr. Byakuya received my report.
“Um, yes. I hope He’s fine,”
Then we both were silenced.
Sided back to each other.
“Aiko-chan??” He called my name.
I stood back directly.
“What’s Doctor??”
“Don’t be so strange. I’m just calling your name,”
“I’m sorry,”
“No. I’m just asking, what’s your decision?”
“I’m sorry. I’m still didn’t know,”
“I’ll be leaving to Korea 2 days again. I have no time and, I love you. I want to bring you with me,” He held my hands.
I just looked at his two eyes.
“I’m sorry Doctor. I need to calm down my self,” I took my bag and home.
“Do you want to accompany by me??” He chased after me.
“Please, Doctor. Only this time, I want to be alone,”
I was home by the last train.
It was so lonely. Only a few passengers sat next to me. I bended my head, and crying.
I didn’t feel that I stepped my feet in front of Dr. Abarai’s apartment.
“Aihara?? Why you so sudden……..”
I let him continued no words, “Doctor, please, don’t open the door,” I held on the doors.
We both were silenced for a moment until…
“Thank you, Dr. Abarai. I’ll accept the application. Thanks to your suggestion. And, you know, after I accept it, I’ll be leaving to Korea with him,” I ran off left the room. I couldn’t bear to said further more.
I love you, Idiot…
