Next day… 08.00 a.m.
Uryuu nii was asked me to take his printed papers in a printed shop.
I was rather been afraid. If I was met him again, what should I say??
After I took the paper, my fear was become true. I met him in the same place. Bus halt.
“Izuko, Please, don’t run away this time from me,”
“Senpai, please. Let go of me!” I pulled my hand.
“Izuko, why you won’t to talk to me??”
I was silenced.
“Izuko, talk to me. Do you remember, when I asked you to wait me up under a tree besides the main building?? It was because; I wanted to talk you that I love you,”
Plakk!!
Suddenly my hand slapped his cheek, “Shut up.”
“Izuko, please, forgive me,”
Then, my bus came, “I’m sorry Senpai, I must go,” I ascended the bus stairs.
“No! You may not!” He held my waist. Then the bus went. Left me with him.
“Explain to me everything. You may angry with me. You can abuse me; you can do everything toward me. But please, explain what’s going on to you?? What happened to you??” He looked at me. His eyes never been changed since our last sight. Black and made me calm.
“Can you imagine??! I love you too! And I wait you so long this!” I beat his chest, “I wait you, but you never come to me!! How dare you didn’t say good bye to me??? You make me kept waiting!” the last beat, I stopped it right in front of his face. My tears drip one by one. My lips were trembled but no word could be said.
Then, we were hugging to each other.
“Kaien-Senpai, I’ve been had a fiancée,”
“Who?” asked him and was still hugging me.
“He’s my superior,” I kept crying.
“I love you, Izuko,” He smelled my hair.
“I know. But, He is a kind man, and you’ve been gone for a long time,” I released my self from him and looked at him.
“I know,” He lifted his both shoulder.
“So, I cannot deceive him,” I smiled at him.
“Izuko, will you be mine??” He wiped my tears.
“I’ve told you, I’ve been had a fiancée,” I stepped away from him.
He just silenced looked at me.
“Don’t make me confuse,” I shifted my sight.
“But, you still love me, aren’t you? And I still love you,”
I didn’t answer.
“Imagine, that our past love can be united again,”
I shifted my head…
The next bus was come. I left him, again…
“Izuko…”
Same as at the beginning. I pretend to didn’t hear that.
“I’ll be waiting you here!! No matter what will be happened!”
I kept walking and at last, I sat in the bus.
Night in Kyoto, 09.00 p.m.
I called Dr. Abarai, and told everything was happening to me.
“So, He’s your senior??” asked Dr. Abarai from distance.
“I really confused. Should I come, or not??”
“Do you love him??”
I just silenced.
“Be honest, Izumi,”
“Yes….” I said it doubly.
“So, you have to met him,”
“No,”
“Why??”
“I cannot,”
“But you must. He’s your first love, right?”
“Past,”
“Whatever,”
“Are you idiot?? I’m trying to hold on to not met him, because I love you! Now, you forced me to meet him?? Hell no!”
I closed the phone…
Next day… 10.00 a.m.
I didn’t tell it to Uryuu nii. I just kept silenced, and pretend there wasn’t happened. 3 hours I pass. It still as usual. Uryuu nii took a nap at 01.00 p.m., and I waited him up by watching TV. But, an hour later, my heart felt uneasy.
Is it really that Kaien-Senpai waited me up there???
But, if I come, I’m afraid if I was wrong,
That question, make me cannot calmed down. I knew the feel to be ‘abandoned’ without more. And I promised to Dr. Abarai that I’ll be backing home at 7.00 p.m. after I finished Uryuu nii’s college’s duty first.
If I came, it means that I love him too, and deceived Dr. Abarai. Which one should I choose!!??
I kept stayed in the house. I didn’t care that He wanted to wait for me or not. But, then I saw a ‘Breaking News’ in the TV program.
Now, is happening a big snow storm. For you’re all who have the activity outside, please, come in and warmed up your self.
My feeling became worried and decided to went our met him.
I took the last bus for this day. I got down at Todachi Halt. The place where we met again at second time.
When I was arriving, I saw no one who was standing there.
“Izuko??” Someone called me.
“Senpai!!” I ran and embraced him, “Are you alright Senpai??”
“You come here,” I saw white steam came out from his mouth. The weather was so cold here.
“No, Senpai, I didn’t come here to answer you. I came here, to say goodbye. I’ll be leaving this evening,” I looked at him and smiled.
“About our love,” I stepped back.
“I’m sorry. I’m still loving you, but as my brother. You’re the best brother that I’ve ever have!” I smiled and slapped his shoulder.
I saw He was smiling.
“And I cannot deceived my fiancée,”
“Izuko……”
“I love you, Nii-san,”
We both were silenced.
“I see. So, I’ll love you too as my sister,” He smiled at me, and wiped my head, “Actually, I’ll be moved again to Fukuyama next day. My job sent me there,”
I looked at him.
“So, see you, Izuko, Abarai-Senpai,”
Abarai-Senpai??
I looked to my back, and…
“Do…Doctor…Abarai??”
When I looked at m y back, Dr. Abarai was right behind me!! Do you know what I’m feeling at the time??
Shy, missing, ah… all my feelings, I wanted to hold his hand, and never let it go.
At last, I just stood still front of him, while Kaien-Senpai was leaving us.
“Dr. Abarai,” I bowed to him. As usual. When the first time we met. When I was standing tall, suddenly He was right front of me and hugged me.
“Doctor, I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean to…”
“Ssshhh… Its all is over now. I knew your feeling at the time. I’m understanding you,” He kept hug me, “Thank you to be always with me…”
He understands me? How about me? Did I understand about his feelings? No, at the end, I’m the stupid one…
“Doctor, is it too late for work?”
“No. today we’re free. I want to spend this day only with you,” I looked at him. His smile, his hands, his breath, ah…
“Would you accompany me, Izumi?”
Then He took me home after meet with Uryuu nii.
I just knew that He could be so nervous when He met Uryuu nii.
“Hey, chill down. I’m just Izumi’s brother,” said Uryuu nii when Dr. Abarai kept bended his head down.
One step before we were leaving, He came to us,
“Please, kept my Izumi as long as she is beside you,”
“What do you mean by my Izumi??” I slapped his hand that was holding my hands.
“Oww! You’re mean, Izumi!”
“Shut up, you’re a suffered of the ‘Sister-complex’ ill,”
We were leaving…
